Friday, August 17, 2007
Leg Drama
what i think is.. that old man was one of the 4 keyblade wielder.. bad one. defeated at the WAR OF KEYBLADE. then end up lost his memory.. but dunno how in Xenohart's form. the Ansem found him and so on.... not sin ka geh...
hIkArI* Pure Soul and Egao no Ooi Hi bakari Janai. says:
like tht still not sin ka??
....As if I had a chance encounter with Mr Tetsuya Nomura. Another self-proclaimed Kingdom Hearts expert. When I say 'another', it means I do know another more notorious one out there. Let us just pray that I get some evidence to show it here soon!
Anyway the point is no this, in my post today!
Now, I seriously think my legs are very unlucky. Yes, my LEGS.
It is the fourth week of uni and surprisingly I managed to hurt my legs thrice, asked for plaster from WanRu twice, limped for at least 5 days and went to a doctor once. Just because of this long pair of legs of MINE. I am currently trying to generate a graph to correlate length of legs with risk of accidents. Looking for the right journal to publish on.
Incident 1:
I was unpacking and MSN-ing.
Leg got stuck between a box and my luggage.
Forced it out, with an air of indifference.
Sprained and tortured by a chiropractor.
** I got to wear a knee protector n looked cool like sportmen do!
Incident 2:
Spanking new metallic red shoes. (My beloved MerahMerah)
Striking green top to go with it.
Strutted down my condo with birds singing in the sky.
Ran when the bus was about to leave.
Loss of skin and pride as I walked like a limp.
In my NEW shoes.
** I got something from WanRu for free!
Incident 3:
Sitting on the bus listening to dear Teru singing 'Mirror'.
Humming along as I indulge in the beauty of a stretch of colourful Kancil.
About to get off the bus.
Leg scrapped on some metal. Looked.
No blood, luckily.
But how come it stings one? Looked.
Wah, many blood oh, dang.
** I got to put on a Hello Kitty plaster from WanRu, er, for free again!
With all these unfortunate things happening to my beautifully sculpted super-model shiny legs, I am so worried of what is yet to come. What if a random alien laser beam hit me on my legs and then suddenly all my leg hair disappear? What should i do then? Wait for them to do my hands intead?
Sometimes, things are just so complicated and life unpredictable.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
St. Mike Dreams
Might be confiscated and banned for its effects which are kinda drug-like.
U know why this is valuable? This is taken during the Pregnancy Era of Choo. Hm, I think this is the 8th Month Stage. Correct me if I am wrong ok Steve? (Steve - the sudden, unknowing accomplice).
This is one of the times when Choo realized one of his high school fantasies. To be close to me. Look at his face, so got 'feel'! With me being 0.6% prettier now, sometimes I worry that he might fall for me ALL OVER AGAIN.
PoWah and his sifu Choo. Here marks the begining of PoWah's transformation into the "current" version. The classic tactics for stealing erasers from Pig Intestines. *Sob*
....I really hope Choo's girlfriend sees this. Hoho.
Here is PoWah living his own high school dream. Pulling that face at Salty.
"My karate geng leh.....heh heh heh." *Shudder*
Oh, see Steve and Choo fulfill their *sob* biggest fantasies. To stand there tall and proud. To be respected. To be a prefect. It was a very touching moment. I swear I saw a glisten of tear in the eyes of Steve as he strutted his long awaited walk across that small corridor. And there was the shiver seen on Choo's then 8 month-belly, as he touched the flag pole.
And you wonder why I wanted Choo's girlfriend to see this post. You think it is easy to pull a look that 'white sticky' (translate yo!)? It takes years of practice and unwavering determination. See, the 50% mastered skill of PoWah at it. Suki, maybe she's a natural? Ho!!
This is Steve thinking himself as damn cool. Why? Well, this is sorta his early days with Contact Lenses. While he might have rated himself as hotter by 1300000000%, the truth is it was only a mere 0.3%. *Phew* Lower than my 0.6% prettier! The proof: PoWah's look.
Are you still gonna ask why I hope for Choo's gf to see this post? This is like the finale of everything. The ending of our midnight stroll down memory lane, realising our dreams one by one, reminiscing about all that happened, gossiped about all there is to gossip, realizing Steve didn't (notice the past tense) have orange peel while the then 8 month-pregnant Choo (notice the re-emphasizing) kept silent, transiently. And I remained in denial of it, by the way.
Here is our very own classic bye-bye style. Devised by 'Choo and the Gang!'. Haha!
Actually nothing EXCITING or BIG happened that nite. Just a good long chat abt everything, endless teasing about the same old things, the usual gossipping around similar topics, kinda stupid antics with around 5 cameras, a lot of prancing around, spooking each other out and of cos, laughter!
Wait!! There is something big!
In the end PoWah mastered the skill of the Choo! *Applause* His very own bye-bye.
Gosh, this is so cool. I must think of my own version soon.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Me ---> Sonee <--- Glay
My blue morning just got 'revived of inspiration' (Woo Hsian quote) because of it.
Maybe it knew I was feeling down and totally slumber, so much so that, it would seem like I was in a coma if I was not moving and dressed up. After all, dressing up in the morning is what drives me in the morning, at least! For that short (really, short) period of time, there is actually passion and fun I feel.
My mp3 player, what shall I name it? Hmm.... Sonie then. Ok, it sounds like the brand name, but it sounds cool!
Sonee was a real darling. I was woken up to Kokodewanai Dokokae. It is true that what I want might not be here, so I will have to move on somewhere to achieve it. Without a map, I'll set out and explore. It is ok to feel lost at times, I suppose?
What really comforted me was the next song, 'Egao no ooi hi bakari janai', as I sat looking at the meaningless view from the bus. The song title translates to 'There aren't only days with smiles', or something like that. Believe 23% of my translations. Erm, or is it 22%? Sigh, bad bad japanese, big big ego.
"There aren't only days with smiles,
For there will be tears as well,
Even now that person is calling out to me,
To never give up,
It will not always the same everyday,
See, the begining is here"
I was very touched by Sonee already by that moment, but then the unbelievable happened. It was Pure Soul. Oh my god. As soon as I typed this, Pure Soul is here again. From this moment on, even if I have no one to turn to in this world, I shall have my beloved Sonee. And I shall be happy!
Pure Soul is my all time frustration song. Countless tears of stress, fatigue, confusion, anger, pain and some other childish rants (not being able to go for a Glay live), had been poured into this one. Remember me mentioning I dun have anyone to pour my heart to? Well, there is Pure Soul. And now, Sonee.
The lyrics are just amazing. The energy emitted inspirational. The integration of Teru's slightly angsty voice, expressed in a burst of mixed emotions with what seems like frustration, confusion and determination or even desperation to survive for his ownself while proving his existence worthwhile, with his voice tender in the end. The music is amazing as well, with hints of piano that makes my heart tremble, superimposed by stronger tones of guitar that gives me the energy to go on and on.
Pure Soul saved me this morning.
And rite now, it is Bokutachi no shouhai. I can go on and on but, with 30 minutes gone by that quickly. And my second failed attempt at telling u guys, a typical day of my uni life, I shall sign off now. By the next post, I hope it will be the happy and pointless posts again, which I love.
Defense Mechanism
I think a lot of people are. Even those who try hard to remain out of the limelight, or those who wish they would just disappear. Deep inside, they do hope to be appreciated and acknowledged rite?
Which leads me to think. Why are people always so bad at expressing what they really want?
Thinking up excuses wastes brain power.
Maintaining the lie requires 100% attention.
Pretending to not care brings frustration.
And despite all these, we still would rather conceal what we want than to just reveal ourselves.
For me, it is a bit scary. To reveal everything or to open up completely to this world, is like exposing myself to the risk of being hurt. And because of this, there exists a natural defense mechanism which is somehow automated now. Fuelled by pride, fear and insecurities - random jokes, empty smiles, forced ignorance mode, pretentious courage became my shield.
I have always been happy with the fact that a lot of my friends can open up to me and share with me things that are close to them, sincerely. To know that they trust me so much is a joy. And I envy the fact they could do so. As for me, it is really hard. And so everything will remain inside of me and live with me till I am able to let go. Probably that is why I enjoy blogging. Some words are just too hard to say.
Rite now, I really feel empty.
I wonder,with me myself being such a minute entity in this world, what do I represent?
My existence rite here rite now. Does it really matter?
The other night, I was on the verge of an ice cream crave due to the hill of assignments, the current problems swimming in my head and the frustration and dissatisfaction burning inside me. At that moment, I realized I really wanted someone to talk to. To really talk to about everything. I searched my whole MSN list and my phonebook as well. Isn't it sad to realize that there is no one you are actually courageous enough to open up to?
Every single chatbox I opened, turned into another crap session.
For I am afraid of being a bother to others. Being weak in front of others. To have others 'entertain' me just for the sake of it. To experience insincerity and be hurt by it.
So now, this is a bad habit I have developed and just realized.
I find it hard to open up to others.
So I avoid it.
I find it disappointing when others do not respond to my actions.
So I stop showing I care.
I find myself easily grown apart with people who seldom interact with me. No matter how close.
So I start feeling strange with them
I find myself resentful towards people who ignore or do not appreciate me.
So I am cautious of not getting hurt by them and I isolate myself.
I am so passive.
I had originally a happy post meant for today. But I guess, the day just didn't go rite.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Detached
Today was really nice. Shopping with my fav YiMa and just eating. Until we started talking abt my dear Uncle Philip who is watching over me from up above. I thought I could talk about him leisurely and just indulge myself with memories of him. Then I realized that although time healed the pain and sadness in dealing with the loss of him, it can never make me stop missing him or wish for him to be here rite now.
Little things make me shed a tear or two when it comes to this special person.
To talk about him with past tense.
To hear others mention that I had always been his favourite.
To be reminded of the countless happy and funny moments we shared.
To have flashbacks of some bad habits of him.
To still remember our last conversation.
I really miss him.
After so long, I feel like I was never willing to let him go.
To buy the instant noodles favoured by him.
To occassionally remind myself of how his voice sounded like.
To play images of various memories we had.
To be happy whenever I had a dream of him.
More than memories, I wish to talk to him. All the crap we used to spend time on. I wish to hug him. Or have him carry me the way he used to. I really wanna hear his voice.
Having lost someone I was so attached to, I began holding on to all traces of memories, or even objects, afraid to let them all fade as time goes by.
I am not sad anymore for his departure for I have accepted this fact.
And I wonder why I still cry over it now.
With this feeling indescribable, maybe I am just acting childish. To be crying over something I can never get.
I am not detached from him, I'm sure. As long as I preserve the memories we had well in my heart, I am sure we are connected somehow.
Another sadder thing is how detached I feel rite now to things I have. Be it emotionally or physically. Some of my family members. Some special ones in my life. Some people I meet everyday. This room of mine. This world, perhaps.
But it is alrite, for I will be able to make it through.
Like I'm sure he'll say,"Fei Chai."
If I ever tell him all these.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
The Dream Ball of mine
Since I won't have the chance to shine in my dream Ball dress. I tot, well, it is just a tot but, I might as well, live in my own lala-land, dress up in my DREAM ball dress, here. Right here. It may sound stupid, but these are my dreams. My dream dresses for a dream-like nite, I might not make it to.
Please share these special moments with me :)



Everyone needs an angel or a fairy godmother.
What better way to live ur dreams than to realize you childhood dream?
It will be a bit hard to get onstage though, if I got voted for Prom Queen.
I am so glad to be able to share these with u before it is too late. My dreams are mentioned here at least and will be known and remembered by all those who cared for me so much as to visit my blog.
All pictures are taken from http://www.uglydress.com/.
Friday, August 10, 2007
For the Love of Glucose
Thursday, August 9, 2007
To my Twin out there somewhere....
Isn't it a wonder? Although this piece of info I had known for quite some time, it is until now only that I find it so special! Imagince someone out there, seemingly unrelated to u but actually holding almost similar genetic makeup as u! I mean, since we look the same, our genetic profile should be as well rite? Imagine seeing urself as if u were looking at a mirror. What will the feeling be like?
Emma feels totally excited and curious. She met a girl in campus who, according to her friend looks exactly like her. Then, her Dad mistook tht girl for her and claimed that the similarity was at 99%. When even your Dad says so, you know it is serious! Thanks to the technology we get to enjoy now, Emma quickly found and showed us that 'twin' of hers. Secretly, I was a bit yearning to meet mine as well!
Then on the Daily 10 of E, the presenter said, "Everyone of us has a twin out there...."
Which prompted me to think of all the past encounters which included other people commenting of my resemblance to someone else....
1) During my primary school years when I used to sport cute pony tails, in an over-sized 'cute' pinafore, a school-bus driver ran to me once. Then she said,"Aiyo, zin heh chiong nga moi zhu oh!" Which was in Hakka, saying that I really looked like her daughter.
2) Then a high school fren, Ting mentioned that I really looked like Hiong Hoi Lam. To my greatest displeasure, cos I am nowhere there. Maybe our body is kinda similar but face, I dun think so la. Hoho.
These seems like the only encounters so far. Where is my twin?
Anyone knows anyone who looks like me?
Personally I think I look like Michelle Reis. The eyes, the face, the way we carry ourselves are so identical that it came to be scary. Maybe you might not think so, but it is okay cos I am sure. As i gaze into the mirror and look into my face of disbelief at what I just wrote.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Too young.
In order to retain the anonymity of the person in this example case, I shall just reveal his,....erm or her MSN ID.
Conversation about the NEW (apparently months OLD wor) Kingdom Hearts video on youtube!
hIkArI* Call me Diet Lo Gam Fei. says:
i am so excited!! (note - innocent and pure intention)
*Stephen^ Know Music, Know Life~~ says:
we've seen this before... the secret ending in FM right? seen already lah. this is many months old... (note - the 'feeling-bothered' and impatient tone)
hIkArI* Call me Diet Lo Gam Fei. says:
seriousss?? (note- persistent innocence)
*Stephen^ Know Music, Know Life~~ says:
it's either u were relunctant to watch before this or some how u missed it. but i would say the first. i'm sure i have given u the link. (note - harsh, just harsh)
hIkArI* Call me Diet Lo Gam Fei. says:
abt KH. i wouldnt be reluctant!! not like younha! (note - effort to explain patiently, ignore the exclamation marks, thx)
*Stephen^ Know Music, Know Life~~ says:
u would be. it's just so u. (note - one word: emotionally hurtful)
hIkArI* Call me Diet Lo Gam Fei. says:
explain tht!! (note - cry for the truth)
*Stephen^ Know Music, Know Life~~ says:
i'm going out. brb. (note - irresposible and inconsiderate answer)
hIkArI* Call me Diet Lo Gam Fei. says:
dun fren u. dun talk to me anymore. (note - Young mind given up on the beliefs of friendship)
*Stephen^ Know Music, Know Life~~ says:
yeah as usual. (note - emotionally scarred by reality)
Does it mean that, in order to be an adult, I will have to become like him? Er, or her?? If it is true, then, reality is really harsher than fantasy (I tot all the fighting in Final Fantasy was really very extremely terrifyingly harsh). Oh dear, I am just so innocent and YOUNG.
But this YOUNG heart shall mature to face monsters of reality in the future like him. Er, or her!
Monday, August 6, 2007
Before-Birthday Party
A pre-birthday greeting or "party" of cos!
And how to make it all the better?
Make a sincere "mistake". Not that u forgot the real date or whatever! No no no...
Just so that u can not only make the birthday girl laugh out loud but also everyone around her laugh like hell! Other bonus effects to the birthday girl include confusion, surprise, lost and "WUAHHH!". And not just anyone can do it, please. Only Amy the Mighty (Clumsy)!
So here is the story. Last year, Little Oli had to have a quite traditional and boring birthday party of hotpot and cake. So her best friend Cute Amy thought of something really nice to do to her. Something creative and BIZARRE! And with her mighty influence, she charmed everyone into this spell of hers. Everyone including me were lured into an illusion so true, we believed in it 100%.
Uncle Tan messaged Li'l Old Me about tomorrow being Little Oli's Birthday. Although it didnt seem like the middle of August yet, I sent my dear Oli a very WARM birthday sms. While inside thinking, "Darn, should have sent the present earlier!" Everything was fine until... Hm, let me just give all u readers the immediate details I got as the Chief Detective of this case.
98022--...Olivia...OMG........Is that A JOKE? lol..hahaha.That was so funny! anyway THANKS! says:
no..just want to tell u that today is my bday
hIkArI* Survey time: Who is your favourite HEROES character? Everyone enlighten blinded-me. says:
did u receive my sms??
98022--...Olivia...OMG........Is that A JOKE? lol..hahaha.That was so funny! anyway THANKS! says:
u thought it that way too? OMG! This is just REALLY Funny. Anyway..THanks.. Is this supposed to be a joke?
hIkArI* Survey time: Who is your favourite HEROES character? Everyone enlighten blinded-me. says:
isn' it on aug 7?
hIkArI* Survey time: Who is your favourite HEROES character? Everyone enlighten blinded-me. says:
eh!! Shud be on Aug 17 rite!!
98022--...Olivia...OMG........is that A JOKE? lol..hahaha.That was so funny! anyway THANKS! says:
yahh...17... But u all thought its on 7 rite..?
hIkArI* Survey time: Who is your favourite HEROES character? Everyone enlighten blinded-me. says:
But then ray sms-ed me, saying ur bday tmr! So i was like, oh ok...
98022--...Olivia...OMG........Is that A JOKE? lol..hahaha.That was so funny! anyway THANKS! says:
and then u knw what? I have been chatting with amy right? Then she dont believe me.. Then she keep saying that i was lying. Then she go frenster check.. Then she said she dont want to talk wif me already!! I think she is gonna call wenji! Hahahahaa.... Anyway...i will remember my 22 bday!!
hIkArI* Survey time: Who is your favourite HEROES character? Everyone enlighten blinded-me. says:
everyone tot ur bday is on tmr then!!
98022--...Olivia...OMG........Is that A JOKE? lol..hahaha.That was so funny! anyway THANKS! says:
shirley and daniel just msg me also! Hahahaha.... But this is quite an innovative way. It is very Creative ...
So that was the gist of the whole crime. But then now let us hear it out from the suspects!
hIkArI* Vote AMY for the clumsiest award on Earth, by putting this on ur msn nick: Amy the Cutie Clumsy! says:
wahahahahahahahahhaahhaa....
[ A : i : m : m : y ] says:
i vote myself can a
hIkArI* Vote AMY for the clumsiest award on Earth, by putting this on ur msn nick: Amy the Cutie Clumsy! says:
funny....
[ A : i : m : m : y ] says:
cute ma. Actually wenji is the most u know. She planned to wake up early to buy cake and flower tmr somemore..
Verdict? Still unclear but since Daniel and Ray and Shirley got involved, I highly suspect the influence of Amy chan. But then!!! There comes a twist to the case, a highly revealing and unexpected turn of event. Our next suspect, WenJi...
-Back~2~Bas!c- says:
Omi god!! We tot oli's bday is tmrw...17th!! Not 7th!!
hIkArI* Survey time: Who is your favourite HEROES character? Everyone enlighten blinded-me. says:
wat did u do??
-Back~2~Bas!c- says:
it was amy.. she called.. thn she realised.. n she checked frenster... we planned to celebrate tmrw!! wat d... olivia tot amy was playin prank on her.. tomorrow meet up as usual.. pretend noting happened then..
hIkArI* Vote AMY for the clumsiest award on Earth, by putting this on ur msn nick: Amy the Cutie Clumsy! says:
wat were ur original plans?
-Back~2~Bas!c- says:
besok pagi.. naik bus.. pergi pinewood... beli kek dan bunga.. lepas tu..meet up at 11.. semua orang.. includin ray...
hIkArI* Vote AMY for the clumsiest award on Earth, by putting this on ur msn nick: Amy the Cutie Clumsy! says:
u were the one saying tht it was oli's bday ah?
-Back~2~Bas!c- says:
speechless lae.. yea lae...i said 7th Aug.. n dunno y evry1 tot so....
hIkArI* Vote AMY for the clumsiest award on Earth, by putting this on ur msn nick: Amy the Cutie Clumsy! says:
u were the one who started it!!
-Back~2~Bas!c- says:
Shh..................... wha...such a good laugh tonite...
So in the end, WenJi was the real mastermind behind all these and innocently Amy became the FAMOUS one here. But since she always wanted to be popular so just let it be la!
It was a real fun night! And a great way to start countdowning to Oli's birthday! Eased my real painful day for today. Oh did I forget to mention?
I bought a pair of sparklingly new, bright RED shoes which wow-ed the crowd. But then beauty comes with a HEAVY price oh yes.
It made me walk at 1 metre/ hr.
It made me look crippled.
It took a HUGE blob of my skin as souvenir.
Which made me squeal in the shower just now.
The day seemed so long. But here allow me to say 'I love you' to WanRu and Elaine. Miss WanRu for giving me light (plasters) in the dark (pain and PKN's taunts). Miss Elaine for plasters that are transparent and actually stick well!
Some feast for ur eyes (Esp Steve and Oli, who would so enjoy me suffering these....):
The redness. The fiery redness.
The final tolerable state of redness and pain.
Life as an artist is really hard. Must sacrifice for art although the beauty part is really limited.
Luckily I still have some fans ard here....
-Back~2~Bas!c- says:
nite kisses from GORGEOUS wenji
98022--...Olivia...OMG........Is that A JOKE? lol..hahaha.That was so funny! anyway THANKS! I LOVE U GUYZ SO MUCH! says:
i love u so much la..
[ A : i : m : m : y ] says:
miss u
Take this! MerahMerah!! (I shall call these shoes like this from now on!)