The inspiration

I am currently inspired by this. Such a cold night but I am feeling fuzzy inside.

The full lyrics translation:

A dry breeze is blowing
The city is getting cold
I wonder how many seasons have passed
without even a sound?

All of the people coming and going
bear heavy burdens,
searching for tomorrow
within the heat haze wavering in the distance.

Feelings like sand
falling through my hands...
Back then, the words that pierced my heart
suddenly started to throb with pain, but...

I've searched for pieces of myself,
counting the endless nights all the while.
These feelings are becoming so certain
I almost lose myself.
Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, however far.

I wonder, why is the sky
so vast?
Even though I tried to yell, my voice didn't come
and the tears poured out.

I wonder where the birds are flying off to,
as they freely slice through the wind?
One can't return to the same place
as it once was in days gone by.

Even if I give up my dream like this,
I won't suppress my soaring heartbeat.
Someday, I want to reach
as high as the clouds. [1]
I'll spread wide the wings in my heart and journey once again

I will reach it, without fail.

I've searched for pieces of myself,
counting the endless nights all the while.
These feelings are becoming so certain
I almost lose myself.
Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, however far.

Poof I'm back!

I am back from my Wonderland! Poof!

After a week of lurking around in my own mind - I have bounced back to yay-ness.

What I learnt from this experience is - there really is a difference when it comes to people you care about. Especially when it comes to friends; while love for your own family is natural like how the saying goes - you can choose you friends, but you cannot choose your family; there are those who become like family and those who just can't.

For someone like me who is living away from home and family, friends become an important part of my life. Quoting a friend, "...you naturally form your own family unit over here...".

We make friends all the time; easier when younger and with less baggage, harder when older as we develop more in terms of personality, perspective and experience.

Over time, in the hands of fate, destiny, magic of dynamics, series of fortunate/unfortunate events, interaction - some friends do indeed become not like family, but family.

I recently realised how easy it is to know who these people are - it all lies in whether you care or not when shit happens.

It is all in how much effort you want to put in to:
- keep in touch: talking, whining, doing something stupid together
- correct wrongs: whenever the odd miscommunication/misunderstanding
- move forward together: forgive and forget all the while hoping to foster a better relationship

It is also in what you feel when something happens:
- happy: if something good happens to him/her or to both of you
- sad: if something bad happens to him/her or to both of you

And ultimately, what it means when you find yourself not caring.

There is much more to focus on than the negatives in life, now isn't it?

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So since I have bounced back, lemme share with you some long awaited due to my emo-ness happenings in my life!

On one nice autumn day, Amanda, Joanne and Melissa invited me for a picnic with Dr Robin at Princes Park near their Parkville apartment. The weather was awesome and the temperature was just right for an autumn dress-up!

I borrowed this mustard cardigan from dear WenJi who has a library collection worth of cardigans of all colours, lengths, sizes and material. I am falling in love with the autumn colours :-)

Floral flowy dress with a mustard cardigan and hairbands with a tan fringe handbag - my perfect autum outfit. Less the tummy bulge sigh.


And of course the best confidence booster?

Colour contact lenses!

So after a series of unfortunate events - late train, naughty Shiro, bus replacing trams in the city and extremely sporadic, a very terrible flu - I finally met up with them! Oh and together with some seniors from Monash Malaysia. How cool? A biotechnology reunion. How cool!

And yes we talked about genetically modified bacteria!

A series of picture (cause I am too distracted watching Glee and crying :'( )

Till then!

What I cried about in Glee?

It might be dark it might be more than that

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything.
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
Noone can see into tomorrow

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the future.
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
and you'll be able to find all that is love...

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the "future."
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...
(Lyrics translation taken from Anime Lyrics dot Com)

Glay Live Tour 2010-2011

GLAY LIVE TOUR 2010-2011 ROCK AROUND THE WORLD

6/17 Misato Hall(Saitama)

6/21 Shimonoseki Citizens Hal(Yamaguchi)
6/23 Miyazaki Municipal Culture Hall
6/25 Nagasaki Brick Hall

7/ 1 Hachinoheshi Kokaido(Aomori)
7/ 3 Oshu City Cultural Hall Z Hall(Iwate)
7/ 6 Yokosuka Arts Theater(Kanagawa)
7/ 8 Takayama Shimin Bunkakaikan(Gifu)
7/11 Yokkaichishi Bunkakaikan(Mie)
7/12 Wakayama Prefectural Culture Hall
7/15 Alpha Anabuki Hall(Kagawa)
7/20 Kushiro City Cultural Hall(Hokkaido)
7/21 Obihiro Citizens' Culture Hall(Hokkaido)
7/23 Hokutoshi Sogo Bunka Center(Hokkaido)
7/27 Hondanomori Hall(Ishikawa)
7/29 Amusement Sado(Niigata)

11/16 Nippon Budokan
11/17 Nippon Budokan
11/20 Toki Messe Niigata Convention Center
11/23 Shizuoka Ecopa Arena
11/27 Nagano Big Hat

12/ 4 Marine Messe Fukuoka
12/ 5 Marine Messe Fukuoka
12/11 Hiroshima Green Arena
12/18 Sendai Sekisui Heim Super Arena
12/25 Hokkaido Prefectural Sports Center・Kitayell
12/26 Hokkaido Prefectural Sports Center・Kitayell

1/ 7 Nippongaishi Hall(Aichi)
1/ 8 Nippongaishi Hall(Aichi)
1/15 Yokohama Arena
1/16 Yokohama Arena
1/29 Osaka-Jo Hall
1/30 Osaka-Jo Hall

2/ 5 Saitama Super Arena
2/ 6 Saitama Super Arena

Okay Who wants to go together!!!!!???

A treat

It made my night.

Defying Gravity

A little inspirational something to send you kids off to sleep!

Soothe

My absolute favourite song at the moment.

Where I should be on my birthday!

Look where I should have been on my birthday!

Glay's Countdown concert and they were singing 'The Birthday Girl' . . . . wuwuwu.

Empty again

My brother just left for Brisbane today :-(

And this song describes totally how I feel right now.

Lyrics:

I'm living in an apartment

Never have before

And it feels a bit strange living up here on the seventh floor

In the city where I come from

We always lived in a house

But now I've got people over me

Under meI'm living with my lover

We've only got two rooms

And I'm working at a day job while I decide what I really want to do

I remember back in high school

Everyone was the same

But now I've got people over me

Under me

Climb, climb, climb up the stairs

Everybody up the emergency exit

Everybody wants the view from way up there

I'm living for the present

I'm living day to day

And I don't have a trust fund

Don't feel the need to superannuate

And when I'm feeling down, down, down

I end up in your arms

And your love washes over me

Under me

Lover please don't get over me

Last Day On Earth

There is this song I have not gotten sick of despite the highly repetitive fashion it is played on the radio.



I like how her voice sounds so fragile but feels so powerful at the same time.

Exactly the type of voice I wish to have:-(